One thing for sure. If you want a Harry Potter magickal experience you’re going to need a heck of a lot of power. At least you will in this Universe. We appear to live in a Universe governed by probabilities. The magick that is reality also appears to be rather non-linear. As in, how you think things should happen in your life is almost certainly wrong.
Can you change your pencil into a train set with the wave of a magick wand? Maybe, the odds though are rather slim. In a probabilistic Universe our magickal workings are all about influencing the odds of some event happening. You need a pretty big shift in odds if you are starting at 1 in 1,000,000,000,000,000,000.
Because shifting odds with magick takes energy you need a bunch of energy the longer the odds. Which is why in my practice I am taking the advice Gordon White over at Rune Soup and breaking my big goals down into small steps. Each little goal is much easier to have influence than one massive goal. Speaking of Gordon White, while you are listening to his podcast check out his book Chaos Protocols. Great book on navigating life in our times with magick.
Another way to work with probabilities is to let go of control. The odds of a successful magickal working may be much higher than you realize. Assuming you do not insist on results showing up the way you think they should.
As an example, this is how I met my wife. For a number of years I had been searching for a type of connection I knew was out there somewhere. This really kicked in after a spontaneous energy initiation in 2001. One of those blow your circuits things that happened when I was alone in nature.
After the divorce from my first wife I started experiencing relationships which kept pointing in this energetic direction. They just were not working out. My intuition was at times screaming at me to not be involved with the woman in my life. Very confusing times. The odds seemed pretty low that I would ever meet my her.
One day I was standing in the shower and I did a small ritual. One of the keys to this ritual was I consciously dropped my criteria for a partner. I asked for my partner, full stop.
She contacted me 2 and 1/2 days later. A very significant time period by the way. One I have seen repeated in other work I have done as well as works of some of my colleagues.
As an aside: I had an on-line profile on a dating service which is where she found me. A day later and it would have been deleted. I was seriously tired of dealing with dating. I had created the profile as a possible route to find “her.”
After we met, we both experienced at least a few years of chaos due to living with the most intense energetic connection we could have imagined. Those familiar with the idea of soul mates will recognize the term Twin Flame. The heat of the Twin Flame connection is pretty good at incinerating non-productive ego patterns.
We survived though and are thriving. Our connection on every level is intense. Without the personal growth work we had both done prior and continue to do we likely would have self-destructed. Life can get pretty confusing when you can sense just about everything about your partner whether they are with you or 100 miles away.
One of the keys to why we were able to get together was in dropping my expectations she be a certain way. After letting go of control and trusting the process the magick, spirits, universe delivered my partner. I am quite sure whoever or whatever is in charge of these things was trying pretty hard to get me to wake up. There were various obvious signs such as three months before we met I had met her in a dream where she had given me her name.
As you develop your magickal practice I am sure you will notice the same effect. Success is a progression where small successes lead us to larger ones. Eventually we arrive at our goal having followed a path we couldn’t have anticipated. Possibly, we find at the end of our work an even better result than we could have imagined.